Tired and weary!

Wanting to be happy about going to work again....... when will this happen I wonder, is it my own fault, should I just stop moaning and get on with it? Perhaps look for something else that is more rewarding, but then don't they say, better the devil you know? My sense of adventure seems to been dampened by all the challenges that have been thrown in my path in the last year or so... so much character building, so many triumphs over the barriers, yet the ultimate goal of achieving a license to practice here as a registered nurse seems out of reach, despite all my efforts, I am getting weary and tired, is this it? Is this all I have to offer Canada, and also is this all Canada has to offer me?

I had a frustrating day last Friday, I had taken the day off and was so excited about it because the kids were off school and Dave was off work too. It was a good opportunity to try and sort my current status in Canada, am I a visitor or temporary worker? Is there a difference? I went to one of the all new, shiny and spanking Immigration Centres, Huge building to help new immigrants settle, ESL classes, childcare facilities, help with all sorts, apart from being able to help me.... they had no answers for me, they told me where I could get answers, avenues I had gone down before only to meet up with a dead end... I was advised to go personally to the Immigration Office in Downtown Toronto.. Please can I call first, so my journey is not wasted? Sorry, we do not have their number... could you call on my behalf as you are the Immigration Centre for newly arrived people to your country? Sorry, no we can't... to again another dead end, another day I have to take off without pay, to find out what my status is...may be a wasted journey, they may not even let me see anyone...busses in out region are still on strike, so it means driving too... I am tired of all this, I just want for things to go smoothly, just for once? Is this too much to ask? I am tired of riding on this roller coaster already....

Dave too had a frustrating time, trying to renew Jasmine's health card which will expire in January for some strange reason, he brought the required documents as stated on the letter we received, he drove there, and got in the queue only to be told he had not brought all the documents required!!! He explained that he brought what was stated in the letter but the dragon guarding the gate would not let him through....

We ended up feeling completely drained and despondent.. even the restaurant that Jasmine wanted to go to was shut as we were too late for lunch and 2 hours too early for dinner...